its such an intensely awkward emotion.
it leaves your
gut unsettled; eyes, shifty.
words are double-checked,
words are double-checked,
before they're sent;
jokes made without care - before,
held in reserve - now.
its confusion; self doubt.
take care, please, or it will
become self-loathing and that
grey knotty tangle inside;
the trigger for something
worse.